I want to receive this, no matter what, but the night is getting too lonely, and the road, too long. Struggling to hang onto hope . . . I was born into a very toxic situation, and I don't even know what love, fun, and joy feel like, tbh. I've always been one to feel nothing would change if I weren't willing to "give it a shot." After so many iterations of "putting myself out there," in various ways and places, to no avail. I saw that many such efforts were unaligned, and turned inside to listen. I began asking for, waiting for, and acting on guidance, even when counterintuitive, I just don't know. But frankly, things continue to get worse. It feels like trying to start a fire in the pouring rain, and folks telling me it should be easy don't understand my context. It's like there's a crucial piece missing - trying to start an engine with no gas, no spark, something.
It feels like I am marked, as Cain. I wonder if some of us incarnate into "no-win" situations. Not long ago, I saw my "pre-deployment" meeting, with the heavy weight and the "guardrails" of safety from death, and I could see how wrenching this would be; it was important that I be unloved while growing up, or I could not fulfill my mission. But in these frail vessels, we have limits, I feel I am reaching mine.
Perhaps my dad's legacy of hate, which I have borne without passing on, is simply too heavy to transmute - for me, anyway.
Others think it's easy because they didn't grow up wired to think of it as hard or to have a bunch of energetic blockages in place from the way they were wired to perceive the world. You have to fight harder for sure - but it will be against your training, against the way you were taught to see the world. Focusing on being present, on allowing a solid core of happiness that comes from appreciation and gratitude to radiate from within regardless of outer circumstances is helpful. It gives you something solid that is solely unto yourself to build upon. It becomes something you always have and are always in control of despite whatever might be happening outwardly. Releasing, detaching, and finding peace within your core will bring you to a place of peace vibrationally and will attract more peace to you. It doesn't need to be perfect. Just come back to that center of peace whenever your mind drifts away from it. And over time, that becomes a habit.
Damn, I've tried as hard as I can to do exactly this, two and a half years, my immovable main focus - I absolutely refused to consider a "darker" view of reality; this perspective did become a default. I could always find a way to return to a lighter, peaceful, more hopeful place. The worst days, I would see them as challenges and lessons, and would experience an internal sensation of growth, of being on the path, within a couple of days - even if my externals did not move.
But things are literally getting worse, in all sorts of ways, in recent months. I simply do not have the energy or resources to meet the challenges. When I call for help and guidance, I experience the silence I grew up under, in material and spiritual ways. And in recent weeks, I just can't sustain any more. I'm exhausted.
There is something you need to release that you are fighting to hold onto. It's getting harder and harder because there is something you need to let go of or let go of having an attachment to. You are creating an energetic blockage by being married to a specific outcome - in your mind, there is something that you think can only happen in the way you see it getting better in order to be better. You will see movement when you release whatever this is. Something is trying to come in for you in a way you're not seeing yet. Allow for that, for the better outcome to be something you haven't considered yet. That's where the blockage is.
I won't pretend to know what exactly you face, but can confirm that some of those exhaustive energies can be due to past burdens that are carried..burdens that are mistakenly yours. If possible using razorsharp memory, see if you have been carrying a projection of someones guilt or shame..that you somehow mistakenly attributed to your fault, and not their lack of accountability. Like a generational mindset placed on your tired shoulders.
Yes, yes and yes! I'm feeling the alignment more and more each day as I flow with what is. I am 10 months free from alcohol and 12 days free from weed. I've spent more than half my life altering my state with substances and now it's time to FEEL my way through. It's a wacky and beautiful time to be alive and I'm so grateful for all that IS. Thank you, Demi, for continuing to bring positive messages for the collective.
I feel like this was written just for me,Demi! Thank you for sharing your energy and vibe through your words. They’re truly uplifting this morning as I’m about to start a magical journey soon!
I want to receive this, no matter what, but the night is getting too lonely, and the road, too long. Struggling to hang onto hope . . . I was born into a very toxic situation, and I don't even know what love, fun, and joy feel like, tbh. I've always been one to feel nothing would change if I weren't willing to "give it a shot." After so many iterations of "putting myself out there," in various ways and places, to no avail. I saw that many such efforts were unaligned, and turned inside to listen. I began asking for, waiting for, and acting on guidance, even when counterintuitive, I just don't know. But frankly, things continue to get worse. It feels like trying to start a fire in the pouring rain, and folks telling me it should be easy don't understand my context. It's like there's a crucial piece missing - trying to start an engine with no gas, no spark, something.
It feels like I am marked, as Cain. I wonder if some of us incarnate into "no-win" situations. Not long ago, I saw my "pre-deployment" meeting, with the heavy weight and the "guardrails" of safety from death, and I could see how wrenching this would be; it was important that I be unloved while growing up, or I could not fulfill my mission. But in these frail vessels, we have limits, I feel I am reaching mine.
Perhaps my dad's legacy of hate, which I have borne without passing on, is simply too heavy to transmute - for me, anyway.
Others think it's easy because they didn't grow up wired to think of it as hard or to have a bunch of energetic blockages in place from the way they were wired to perceive the world. You have to fight harder for sure - but it will be against your training, against the way you were taught to see the world. Focusing on being present, on allowing a solid core of happiness that comes from appreciation and gratitude to radiate from within regardless of outer circumstances is helpful. It gives you something solid that is solely unto yourself to build upon. It becomes something you always have and are always in control of despite whatever might be happening outwardly. Releasing, detaching, and finding peace within your core will bring you to a place of peace vibrationally and will attract more peace to you. It doesn't need to be perfect. Just come back to that center of peace whenever your mind drifts away from it. And over time, that becomes a habit.
Damn, I've tried as hard as I can to do exactly this, two and a half years, my immovable main focus - I absolutely refused to consider a "darker" view of reality; this perspective did become a default. I could always find a way to return to a lighter, peaceful, more hopeful place. The worst days, I would see them as challenges and lessons, and would experience an internal sensation of growth, of being on the path, within a couple of days - even if my externals did not move.
But things are literally getting worse, in all sorts of ways, in recent months. I simply do not have the energy or resources to meet the challenges. When I call for help and guidance, I experience the silence I grew up under, in material and spiritual ways. And in recent weeks, I just can't sustain any more. I'm exhausted.
There is something you need to release that you are fighting to hold onto. It's getting harder and harder because there is something you need to let go of or let go of having an attachment to. You are creating an energetic blockage by being married to a specific outcome - in your mind, there is something that you think can only happen in the way you see it getting better in order to be better. You will see movement when you release whatever this is. Something is trying to come in for you in a way you're not seeing yet. Allow for that, for the better outcome to be something you haven't considered yet. That's where the blockage is.
I open to this and receive it. Thank you, Demi.
Sending you so much love and healing!! 🙏🏻💜💫
I won't pretend to know what exactly you face, but can confirm that some of those exhaustive energies can be due to past burdens that are carried..burdens that are mistakenly yours. If possible using razorsharp memory, see if you have been carrying a projection of someones guilt or shame..that you somehow mistakenly attributed to your fault, and not their lack of accountability. Like a generational mindset placed on your tired shoulders.
Hope this helps dear soul. ❤️✨️🙏
Thank you! 🙏
Yes, yes and yes! I'm feeling the alignment more and more each day as I flow with what is. I am 10 months free from alcohol and 12 days free from weed. I've spent more than half my life altering my state with substances and now it's time to FEEL my way through. It's a wacky and beautiful time to be alive and I'm so grateful for all that IS. Thank you, Demi, for continuing to bring positive messages for the collective.
I'm so glad you're feeling better! Sending my love!! ☺️🙏🏻💜💫
I feel like this was written just for me,Demi! Thank you for sharing your energy and vibe through your words. They’re truly uplifting this morning as I’m about to start a magical journey soon!
I'm excited to hear about it!! Sending my love!! 🥰❤️🦋
Thanks Demi! Your message today definitely spoke to me. ✨💖✨
How did we get on the same vibe today. Never even saw your post. <checks cosmic compass>