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This message finds me in the space where I know in my deepest intuition what I need to do, and am gearing up to do it -- to no surprise, standing up to a lifelong abuser is fucking terrifying. Ultimately, the "what ifs" and the weird guilt and shame have to mean LESS to me than a liberated life does. Thank you for the message. First thing on my mind when I woke up was this. πŸ’Ž πŸ™ 🌟

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You're strong - remember how strong you are. Even when you break. Even when you're vulnerable. Especially now that you CAN be vulnerable. You've already won. Before, you couldn't have even told me this - you wouldn't have even been able to vocalize how you felt. Stand where you are - right now - and look at how FAR you've come. You have been through so much. This is difficult. Please give yourself credit - and I mean LOTS. This takes bravery. There will be a cascade of emotions to get through. You know that. Expect them. The guilt and shame are there to keep you entrenched in the spiral, to keep you quiet, to force you into silence and numbing. Latch onto the liberation and ride out the emotional wave. You asked for "fuckshit free." Take it. It's yours. πŸ™πŸ»πŸ’œπŸ’«

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You got this!! πŸ™ŒπŸ™Œ

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Do try to not let it get to you. Merry Christmas πŸŽ„ https://youtu.be/lxV1cX9owKE?si=ApQN4sKxujtGw4tl

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Dec 21, 2023Liked by The Starfire Codes

Thank you so much...I needed this.πŸ’œπŸ¦‹πŸŒŒπŸ™

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You're welcome, Natalia! Sending my love!! πŸ™πŸ»πŸ’œπŸ’«

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Dec 21, 2023Liked by The Starfire Codes

Thank you from my heart. I am sending you my love too. Thank you for who you are and what you do.πŸ’–πŸ™πŸ€—πŸŒπŸ•Š

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Dec 24, 2023Liked by The Starfire Codes

Thanks for all the wonderful messages, memes and other mind candy. Not just in this post but in the preview articles too. I thought I would say thanks here since I'm a free sub.

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Thank you so much! πŸ™πŸ»πŸ’œπŸ’«

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Thank You Demi. Much love to you.

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Received and back atcha!

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Dec 22, 2023Liked by The Starfire Codes

It was meant for me. I came from a very caustic family and left America 24 years ago to be on the other side of the world from the. My narcissist dad called a few hours ago to tell me he is moving to my town with his online filipina wife this year to stay until he dies. He knows I dont want it but am too kind to tell him to fuck off.

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I'm so sorry you're going through that. If you're already feeling this way about it, it's unlikely to get better. Forming a game plan for yourself would be wise. Is this a bluff designed to irritate you? Is he really planning to move? Have you thought about self-advocating? What would the blowback be from that? Are you prepared to leave and go elsewhere if it gets uncomfortable for you? These are all questions you'll need to meditate on and really observe your feelings as you come up with your answers. I hope, whatever decision you make, you are able to lead a peaceful life in the manner of your own choosing. πŸ™πŸ»πŸ’œπŸ’«

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Thank you for your reply. It's impossible as I have been living here retired for 9 years, and have 3 kids, 2 of which are in school. Self advocating is worthless with this guy. I can only hope his plans fall through, or he will die in the meantime. Hahaha!!!

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Brilliantly put together ❀️ xxx

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Thank you, Beth! Sending my love!! ❀️πŸ₯°β€οΈ

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As always your faithful servant..bxxx

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